Thursday, May 7, 2009
Here I am...
This is me, the woman who truly believes insanity is a step away. I have been on the go, non-stop...without going anywhere. I honestly believed much of my stress would drop off with Hubby being busy looking for a job. I find myself now wanting to chuck my phone as hard as I can at the brick wall outside. I am dead tired. I am having such a hard time balancing all that needs to get accomplished here alongside giving hubby the support he needs in what seems to be 24/7. I notice when he is frustrated he throws it all back...and I take it. Why? Because I love him...for time and all eternity...I love him. He will in turn handle all of my frustration while we are down there and I am looking for a job. I know he will support me, that's what marriage is all about.
The good news for the day...we have interest in the property and if that doesn't work out we have interest in selling the incredible aged barn wood that lines the inside of our store. One way or another I will make the money to make my way down south. The calmness dwelling in my heart is incredible. In the past few days I have learned my family's name has been put in temples in Fresno, Oakland, Sacramento, London and Los Angeles. It brought tears to my eyes to know of the fasting, prayers and sincere love and support across the globe from our friends.
Gratefulness is what rules my heart and mind. I am grateful for the friends who call, the e-mails sent and the laughter I've been given. The other night I sincerely laughed my fanny off...of course I found it later on...bummer I know. Laughter was something which has eluded me for some time. So I ask everyone to find a reason to laugh today for me. Spread the joy!!!