Yes, I've been absent. Ugh, I feel exhausted with my life right now. I truly can't keep up. Perhaps it is the euphoria of my youngest graduating high school or maybe even the fact that I have been working the dreaded night audit, graveyard shift in hotelspeak, training our newest Part Time Night Auditor. So far, it has gone well. He is learning and by the second night he has learned to run the entire night audit himself. It's not rocket science, but if you don't get enough sleep it can be mind numbing. I FINALLY caught up with my sleep and this is the 4th night. I'm almost to the end of it. I'll be training for 6-7 nights in a row and I will be ready for a couple of days off.
In 4 nights my life changes. I've been all about my kids for 20 years, My entire life revolved around school projects, tests, school activities and them to be brutally honest. I was never the best mom, but I loved them so I was the best mom for them. I can see Mrs. Cleaver cringing at some of the choices I've made in parenting. Some made sense...others....not so much. So, now I receive my report card. How are my kids? Did I teach them enough?
BYU Girl- She is a well adjusted young lady who LOVES her life at BYU. She knows what she wants and how she is going to get it. She has decided she is ready to have boyfriend/husband. This is the way this girl works. She decides what she wants, when she wants it and then works to get there. She is strong in the church and has an intense desire to marry in the temple.....I get a B on this kid. Love Her!!!
The Marine- My son, my heart. He has finished his full time active service and has now transitioned to Reservist status. He spent a year way from home and now knows what he wants. He wants to become a high school technical drama teacher. While I was at work he went to the local community college he applied and got everything in order. He is also working full time and is looking to find the girl he will settle down with permanently. He struggles a bit with his desire to go to church, but he attends and does what he needs to do.......I give myself a B+ on this kid. He has a wonderful heart and will get to where he needs to be.
The High School Senior/Graduate- This is the girl who I held in my arms for the first time and the spirit whispered: "This is your trial in life." GULP....I wish I was kidding about that. She has been the one kid who struggled the most, but all in all she just wants to be loved and she is. She is headstrong and intelligent. She is wonderfully witty with a heart to love the world. She has decided not to go to college as she is not ready. Instead, she wants to work full time and start putting money away. She is my heart. I adore this little girl......I give myself an A on this kid just for pure effort. She has no desire right now to go to church, but she believes wholeheartedly in what she was taught growing up. In truth this kid just has a strong desire to make her own choices. I know at some point she WILL choose to go to church, but as always with this kid....it's in her own time.
All three of these kids are at home right now, but by the end of summer they all have plans to be out of the house. One to college and two moving into apartments with their friends to start their lives as adults. I'll miss these kids as I won't be concentrating on them 100% each day. Now there will be time for me to take care of myself. It's going to be odd, but it'll be good.