tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7046687350464958740.post3030530285936456510..comments2023-10-28T03:46:46.046-07:00Comments on Just Me: How Do I Fall In Love With Church Again?!?!tammyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06089105047115114848noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7046687350464958740.post-23860762067302116682011-08-08T22:02:05.460-07:002011-08-08T22:02:05.460-07:00I've found that Satan can really get to a pers...I've found that Satan can really get to a person through small ways in making one feel the frustrations that can accompany with having the "perfect" experience at church. Of course, I've also had to realize that as I am not perfect, neither is anyone else. So, I do understand your frustration. At one point I didn't even know why I even bothered to go to church since I spent most of the 3 hours in the hallway trying to calm squirrely babies and kids. Since then, I watch my kids and wonder at the testimonies they have in going even when we weren't able to go due to work schedules.<br /><br />At some point you will return to church and feel the spirit coursing through your veins. It will be an incredible experience, just don't draw too far away. You are truly a precious woman who dserves to feel the spirit as well. We can do this!!! Love ya just the way you are!!!tammyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06089105047115114848noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7046687350464958740.post-26133581005716649102011-08-08T21:22:25.943-07:002011-08-08T21:22:25.943-07:00I rewrote that comment several times before I post...I rewrote that comment several times before I posted it because I was so worried about how it would come across. It's nice to see you got it in the spirit I intended it. It's also nice to be understood. Since I live in "Zion", can't say that out loud around here. Not because people won't understand, I think MOST people have been here if they are honest, but because it's not okay.Cynthiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15300459671364768442noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7046687350464958740.post-62555491893499822982011-08-07T14:48:17.275-07:002011-08-07T14:48:17.275-07:00I was worried I would lose friends by even admitti...I was worried I would lose friends by even admitting I had fallen out of love with church. I feel lucky that I am abl to say no to things and not feel guilty....AND we have a terrific bishop who undestands I am working full-time, going to school full-time and still trying to make it there when I can. I've got a really big church book library so I think you are right and I should take a book and sit down and read it. Thank you so much Cynthia for your suggestion.<br /><br />I know where you are at right now. Mentally, I went through the same thing several years ago, though still kept going. When I finally learned to say no and allow myself to not feel guilty, knowing my limits, it was a change that was incredible in my life.<br /><br />The world didn't end when I couldn't make the perfect desert for the Relief Society birthday dinner. The Lord knew I couldn't do it and that was all there was to it.tammyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06089105047115114848noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7046687350464958740.post-9993324247729622592011-08-07T14:32:54.733-07:002011-08-07T14:32:54.733-07:00I wish I knew. After years of dreading Sundays, I...I wish I knew. After years of dreading Sundays, I finally quit going. I feel some guilt about it and I keep resolving to go back but the peaceful, non-demanding Sundays I am currently enjoying with my family are simply more fullfilling to me than the endless meetings and obligations over there. <br /><br />I guess at least now I can feel guilty for not attending rather than working like crazy doing all the callings and bazillion other things they want- and still feeling guilty because no matter how much I give, it's never enough. The insatiable appetite for people's time is the case with any volunteer organization but it wears a person out. I need to recharge and rethink and I have been. <br /><br />When I do go back, it will be with MUCH better boundaries. I won't be the girl who can't say no ever again and the guilt trips won't work on me.<br /><br />I wish I could tell you how to get the desire for spiritual connection back but I don't know myself. Perhaps just starting with some of the modern books by Church authors on spiritual topics will start getting you back in the 'mood' without being demanding?Cynthiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15300459671364768442noreply@blogger.com